Shaded Heart

Tainted thought brings sweet illusion
Victory of a forgotton fall
Temptation arising into passion of love
Succumb to the sweet melody

Bringing more than just emotion
Something that seeks to destroy
But is held as a treasure to you
And I too have tasted death

Echos sound across these walls
Reflecting thoughts I threw away
Burning imagines inflame my mind
As hate consumes my fading heart

Lonliness never seems to leave
Along with words I could do without
I spit the acid of rejection
At your lies and broken promises

Feelings plague this hallow soul
And I curse myself into hell
When voices sound in my direction
I’ll be too far gone to hear

Breathe. Taking in the air
Silent intoxication here
Streaming through my veins
Bleeding out my tears
A forced sigh of discomfort

Speak. Nothing to be said
An evil silence spreads
Dying slowly to myself
Trying not to think aloud
Another second creeps on by

Feel. Numbness takes control
A pain that killed a soul
Escaping through my hands
Taping up the wounds
The dark consumes the fire

Die. Struggle for the life
This long and lonely strife
Crying to gods not there
Fearing what a moment brings
My heart never feels a beat

When we see the light
And we say goodnight
I don’t want this to be the end

Can I stay a while
In sweet denial
It doesn’t have to be like this

Your lovely smile
Your tender kiss
All these things I have grown to miss

So I sing this song
And when I am gone
Will you sing it right back to me?

And now you’re gone
And it’s been too long
Since I could hold you in my arms

And it breaks my heart
When we’re apart
Won’t you come running back to me?

Well I’m still here
So do not fear
I love you still, I love you still

D ear so a precious love,
I nscripted with the edge of time
A re symbols of my joyous heart
M ade to last a lifetime
O ur souls now intertwine
N ot unlike a candle’s fire
D istinguishes from the darkest
S hadows of my love

When fading worlds seem to collide
And everything starts to break inside
Heavy thunder rings its toll
That lightning has struck this soul

The violent rose lashes forth
A symbol that was something of worth
Shattered by such turbulent wind
Never will it love again

Rain proceeds to drown its prey
And promises will soon decay
And soon the light will twinkle through
And dry up all my thoughts of you

Thoughts of you are flashing past my eyes
There’s something here I failed to realize
I’m wondering if this is still the end
But just so you know, I’d do it all again

Your hair falls into place
And my heart starts to race
The smoothness of your skin
Won’t you smile at me again?

And the nights with nothing else to do
I only know I want to be with you
My mind is numb and I can never think
When your love is on the brink

I want to put this pain aside
I want to forget about your lies
I want to hear your voice again
I want to be with you again, again

Your hands run down side
Makes me feel so alive
When you smile up at me
There’s no where I’d rather be

Walking around the room again
Doing circles in my head
Forgot to eat today again
Wondering if I’m dead

Music playing loud again
Lyrics make me cry
Didn’t sleep another night again
No reason to try

Not picking up the phone again
It’s not you anyway
Writing in my book again
You’ll probably throw away

Crying all alone again
Nothing stops the tears
Dying all alone again
You are all my fears

Thoughts are softly seeping through my brain
Violent stares at baron walls again
These desperate rings are ringing through my head
Wondering if I could really be this dead

Repulsive sounds now take on form
Reciting how I could ever be this torn
Acid tears are keeping me from sleep
With thoughts of things I dare not repeat

Broken words pierce through the heart
I’m holding in yet I’m falling apart
Selfdestruct at the wheel of my car
How could you set me this far?

Painful thoughts crash ashore
As feeling slowly erodes away
Every image burns into my mind
For fear this could be the last

Every kiss stings sweetly
And your words echo through caves
Filled with shadows and evil
Where light may never break

Streams of sorrow flow quietly
As the salt interests my lips
Defeat infests my very self
At the movement of your lips

An awkward smile makes charades
You kiss the hate away
And I’m gazing toward the stars
For some solace from another lost