Shaded Heart

This feeling I cannot describe
The way you make me feel inside
Your every breath, your every touch
I’ve never felt a love so much

The way your smile makes me feel
Inside your eyes a sweet surreal
The softened feeling of your skin
These things I never want to end

I hope these words aren’t too late
I hope your love will not abate
Too long I’ve held these thoughts within
How beautiful this time has been

I hope we’ll make it through the fights
That keep me wide awake at night
I just don’t want to see you go
Just tell me that you see it so

I find myself lonely but not alone
Surrounded by pain and sorrow
Washing in a pool of self pity
Dirtied by a broken heart

Forbidden fruits encompass me
Tempting me with their beauty
Promising a fresh new life
So I hold them without tasting

Thoughts race through my mind
Memories and regrets I hold
Emotions distilled by hate
But I try not to fall down

The sun never did shine
Only light comes from within
But the night is suppressing
And I love and hate you

As I wade into deeper sorrow
My tears begin to drown me
And if these tears were yours
I wouldn’t mind death

Now I am lost to begin
And the oceans swell high
So I capsize my own boat
And my face pleads a resolve