Shaded Heart

I find myself lonely but not alone
Surrounded by pain and sorrow
Washing in a pool of self pity
Dirtied by a broken heart

Forbidden fruits encompass me
Tempting me with their beauty
Promising a fresh new life
So I hold them without tasting

Thoughts race through my mind
Memories and regrets I hold
Emotions distilled by hate
But I try not to fall down

The sun never did shine
Only light comes from within
But the night is suppressing
And I love and hate you

As I wade into deeper sorrow
My tears begin to drown me
And if these tears were yours
I wouldn’t mind death

Now I am lost to begin
And the oceans swell high
So I capsize my own boat
And my face pleads a resolve

“I’d kill for peace.” said one man
Marching off to war.
His blade gripped in his hand,
His head filled with lore

Of those who came before him,
So bravely did they fight.
They left home but a peasant,
But returned a noble Knight.

“I’d kill for peace.” said another,
About to face his foe.
He wielded his mighty mace
And swung his deadly blows.

The clashing of the sabers,
The clanking of the spears,
The sounding of the crying trumpets
Filled the warrior’s ear.

“I’d kill for peace.” shouted one soldier
As the hour grew weary and late,
“I’d kill for peace.” agreed another
If they only knew their fate.

Then the war was over,
And nothing could be said.
No heroes were forged that day,
For no hero can be dead.

In war there is one victor,
And all shall know its name.
Every man will succumb to it,
For it will always reign.

“I’d kill for peace.” said the man,
Who lay dying under sun.
For when the war was over,
He found that only death had won.