Shaded Heart

Goodnight:
A slender, sleeping sight;
born for such beauty
that love may endure
such a dream-filled duty
as a heart as warm as yours.

Silence induces thought
Images of a distant love
Conquer my feeble heart
And I submit to life

Awake but still dreaming
Always at the thought of you
Until forever finds an end
Such is my love for you

Torn inside a moment
Heaven and hell collide
Expect no compromise
Yet still a hint of hope

Sleep wanders around me
And dreams seduce my heart
If all was lost briefly
Only then could I gain it all

My darkest hour was barely grey
compared to your incessant dismay.
I tried to help but you wouldn’t speak.
That fateful hour, your life so bleak.

You run away and still I follow.
You realize your life so hollow.
I wish I’d been there in your life
before you took that silver knife.

You took your own by my side.
The pain I felt I can’t confide.
I only hoped it was a dream.
I could not stop the bleeding seam.

When you died, so did I.
I did not realize my demise.
I follow you now to your grave,
for without you, there is no shade.

Shadows I cast in light
Veil my hope for love
But I’m blind to life
As my heart sees you

Stumbling through darkness
Not to find my vision
But to gain my love
And hold her closer still

Memories escape me
Those simple, dull seconds
And my passionate moments
Confused now with dreams

Dreaming always of you
The sick and the sweet
Always beautiful to mind
Always tourment to soul

Restlessness tightens its grip on me
And deprives me of those dreams of you
A twilight now endures for days
Those questions burning inside my soul

The flame – freely burning at first
Through perseverance becomes controlled
A light that radiates a love for you
A love which is as true as the day

Within the stillness of this sanctuary
The seeds of love are sown
And gently nurtured to flowered life
Which blooms the image of my heart

I try to find the words to say
Exactly what I meant that day
There’s nothing else I’d rather do
Than spend the day alone with you

When it comes to my own heart
I never quite know where to start
You will always mean so much to me
It may be hard for you to see

I wish our nights would stand stilled
Making now those dreams fufilled
The days I’m waiting missing you
I wonder how I make it through

You wonder what my heart would say
If it could speak to you today
If nothing else I care for you
You alone; I know it’s true

Those crazy nights and longing days
I’m trapped within your mystic haze
A place of passion and surreal
A place I always want to feel

In distant thoughts or fading dreams
I can envision your crystaled eyes
Burning blue torches of fire
Fueled by the essence of your soul

As the night coat begins to shed
Light breaks across your every contour
Illuminating my thoughts with you
That flow filled with your beauty

The sand of time trickles tardily
And I savor every grain of love
And I long to hold you close to me
To live again inside your smile

As the morning light was breaking
I felt your warmth on my face
And as I woke up with a smile
I recalled the dream I had of you

As I’m listening to the music
I can hear you in the words
Singing out to reach me
Our chord which you charmed

I’ll pass you in the hallway
And greet you with my arms
Exchange intimate glances
The day becomes a better place

I love it when you lean on me
It makes me feel like I’m still strong
I’ll embrace you in my arms
And swear to never let you go

And when I read your letters
There’s not a word I understand
Except where you signed it
“Love Always”

And as the days continue on
Hopefully I’ll never wake up
From this dream, the dream is you
I will love you always, and forever

As I sit surrounded by strangers
A find myself dreaming of far away places
And wishing every breath wasn’t our last
Searching for an answer to an unknown question

I’m torn between these worlds
Of reality and surrealism
And I’m lost between you and me
Trapped within a void of hate

And I dare to dream of you
Your beauty hits me like the sun
Following even in my darkest recess
An image that is never gone

I cannot tell day from night
I drink the water that is sand
Slowly choking my love away
Until my heart stops beating

I turn to my enemies in disguise
And outreach my hand with a plea
And the silent condemnation tolls
And once again I am alone

With extreme, comes a change
Balancing in full my derange
I know not why I am here
Or why I still live in fear

The rising up sets me free
But I’m rising to reality
What once was clear, now is haze
I am lost within an empty maze

And as I grow forever strong
I seem to kill my own soul’s song
There can be no in-between
I have met the bitter seam

What lies beyond, no one speaks
Only dreams and imagination keeps
That which I now must transcend
To begin a new, to close an end

And so now I dwindle away
From that which I always stay
And life goes on, minds forget
Alone I travel this fateful trip