Shaded Heart

When the days become long and hot
And the sun again shows no mercy
The thought is burned into my head
The memory of my summer past

The painful ones I’d rather forget
These better ones I hardly know
My broken thoughts have pulled together
Time has slowly found its way

Well I bet you never understood
I’m guessing you were that blind
The things you did to kill my heart
When I needed you the most

The times when I would fight at home
Those days I bet you never cared
Did you care enough to look inside?
Pain was swelling in my eyes

My self had become lost in me
My soul had become unclear
Did you see the loss in me?
You never tried to help me find

When I only needed someone to hold
You went and ripped yourself away
When I was weak you struck me down
Did you ever even understand?

Even when I was falling after you
Did you catch me before I hit?
The nights I cried over my loss
I bet you never knew about those

But when I hit I stood right up
Hand by hand climbed out of pain
Now you want what you always had
What you selfishly gave away

I won’t let you drag me down again
I’m bruised but I’m not beaten
And this isn’t a hate letter, oh no
This is merely an explanation

In distant thoughts or fading dreams
I can envision your crystaled eyes
Burning blue torches of fire
Fueled by the essence of your soul

As the night coat begins to shed
Light breaks across your every contour
Illuminating my thoughts with you
That flow filled with your beauty

The sand of time trickles tardily
And I savor every grain of love
And I long to hold you close to me
To live again inside your smile

Love, it’s like a sunset
An inevitable fact of life
A beauty that captures our eyes and heart
But eventually fades below the horizon

A feeling you’ll always return to
And one that will always be there in the end
A fortunate token of life
That no man has control of

And everyday tells a story
The sun burns a love that’s true
The ocean’s depth my capacity
Despise the night that steals you away

This feeling I cannot describe
The way you make me feel inside
Your every breath, your every touch
I’ve never felt a love so much

The way your smile makes me feel
Inside your eyes a sweet surreal
The softened feeling of your skin
These things I never want to end

I hope these words aren’t too late
I hope your love will not abate
Too long I’ve held these thoughts within
How beautiful this time has been

I hope we’ll make it through the fights
That keep me wide awake at night
I just don’t want to see you go
Just tell me that you see it so

I dreamed another dream of you
And I’m wondering what this means
Yesterday’s strangers brought together
Over something I have yet to define

I can picture you in my mind
Your smile beckoning me to come
Your eyes promising a new love
My feet are running, but heart delay

I think I need a friend right now
Someone to confide my fears to
Someone to hold when I’m alone
And thank you for being there