Shaded Heart

Painful thoughts crash ashore
As feeling slowly erodes away
Every image burns into my mind
For fear this could be the last

Every kiss stings sweetly
And your words echo through caves
Filled with shadows and evil
Where light may never break

Streams of sorrow flow quietly
As the salt interests my lips
Defeat infests my very self
At the movement of your lips

An awkward smile makes charades
You kiss the hate away
And I’m gazing toward the stars
For some solace from another lost

I’m sick of this feeling I have
A guilt and regret I didn’t earn
A hate you sowed in my heart
An anger you continued to fuel

And so I’ve let you go now
I even set you gently down
I’ve found your love in another
Someone who always makes me smile

Someone who’s there when I fall
And cares enough to say it so too
Someone who makes me feel wanted
And wants to be wanted the same

This is everything you threw away
All you had but tossed aside
This is my life I have to live
A life you chose to live without

In this deep and quiet suppression
I find myself alone with my thoughts
A matrix of burning emotions
Entangled in the thought of you

I’ve had my share of bad days
Paid in full with hate for you
You left me here without a reason
Your absence speaking all you felt

As my fall became sincere
I turned away from the pain
And thought I knew I’d be missed
I left with my final good-bye

Now that I’ve found another
You’re wanting back what you gave away
All we had and all we know
Lost in the memory of tomorrow