Shaded Heart

I’m weaving between metal death
My fingers flow with turns of you
And every car passed brings me closer
Closer to your touch of love

The radio plays all our songs
So every word I take to heart
Everything you have ever said
Is treasured within these doors

The air becomes my only hope
Filled with all the breaths of you
Rushing through my distant eyes
And crashing upon my heart

The mileage is my written proof
With every mile I love you more
I’d drive forever to see you smile
To hold you close to my heart

As we lay here holding on so closely
I gaze up at those heavenly fires
Brilliantly burning their lives away
Clinging only to their darkness

The moon’s radiance soothes me
Warming my mind to distant thoughts
Gleaming upon the softly breaking waves
That wash the broken death ashore

The streetlights yield a steady flicker
Complimented by the sound of passing cars
The rhythmic ambiance flows with my heart
A heart that is beating only for you

Seaborne air breathes the scent of life
And we’re quick to run to warmer refuge
The clouds set themselves upon your lips
Lacing the ground with its subtle shine

I shut my eyes and soak you in completely
And I pray I’ll never wake from this dream
With you it seems everything is poetry
From my heart with a perfect love

In the quiet stillness of night
As the rain softly taps on my heart
A breeze gently rustles through my mind
Which carries the whisper of your name

Months of time pass in seconds
As I lust for the thought of you
I fear to be left alone with my thoughts
Alone without the sound of your name

Words spill onto paper like blood
And they flow through the veins of pages
That somehow these feeble words might suffice
And fill your heart with the love I breathe

When the days become long and hot
And the sun again shows no mercy
The thought is burned into my head
The memory of my summer past

The painful ones I’d rather forget
These better ones I hardly know
My broken thoughts have pulled together
Time has slowly found its way

Well I bet you never understood
I’m guessing you were that blind
The things you did to kill my heart
When I needed you the most

The times when I would fight at home
Those days I bet you never cared
Did you care enough to look inside?
Pain was swelling in my eyes

My self had become lost in me
My soul had become unclear
Did you see the loss in me?
You never tried to help me find

When I only needed someone to hold
You went and ripped yourself away
When I was weak you struck me down
Did you ever even understand?

Even when I was falling after you
Did you catch me before I hit?
The nights I cried over my loss
I bet you never knew about those

But when I hit I stood right up
Hand by hand climbed out of pain
Now you want what you always had
What you selfishly gave away

I won’t let you drag me down again
I’m bruised but I’m not beaten
And this isn’t a hate letter, oh no
This is merely an explanation

I’m sick of this feeling I have
A guilt and regret I didn’t earn
A hate you sowed in my heart
An anger you continued to fuel

And so I’ve let you go now
I even set you gently down
I’ve found your love in another
Someone who always makes me smile

Someone who’s there when I fall
And cares enough to say it so too
Someone who makes me feel wanted
And wants to be wanted the same

This is everything you threw away
All you had but tossed aside
This is my life I have to live
A life you chose to live without

A simple game between two hearts
That builds and grows from another
Caring for each other’s needs
Loving them for who they are

And when one side has had enough
They’ll turn on you and declare war
Murdering those that they once loved
And dividing their allies amongst them

The feud will last for sever weeks
Taking unmercifully the innocent too
It’s funny how our lives can be so changed
With a simple change of mind

Trapped within a bitter despair
Cool air forces itself through the trees
And the amble of the day turns to haste
As the crow devours the white dove

The elicited truth bleeds forth
And my hands bathe themselves red
As the grotesque truth is revealed to me
A watered down lie once believed

And its as the night becomes day
Hate replaces love in my heart
And anger streams thought my veins
Destroying a heart no longer for you

I spit in the face of so called truth
I chew on it and regurgitate it back
And I fear this merciless soul-killer
And I find ignorance a pleasing savior

Love, it’s like a sunset
An inevitable fact of life
A beauty that captures our eyes and heart
But eventually fades below the horizon

A feeling you’ll always return to
And one that will always be there in the end
A fortunate token of life
That no man has control of

And everyday tells a story
The sun burns a love that’s true
The ocean’s depth my capacity
Despise the night that steals you away

My hands become cold as I embrace loneliness
And I’m remembering every word you said
Every lie I believed foolishly
With your every synthetic emotion

My heart bleeds to this day for you
But your eyes are nowhere to be found
And you’ve fortified your heart against me
And you left me here to die all alone

I tried so hard to get you to stay
But by then you’ve run out of reasons
You are the first I really, truly loved
And I’m sorry now for this fact

So I’ll say “fuck you” and “good-bye”
Even though I’ll never forget you
And I blame myself for all of this
I should have never opened up

The day gives way to darker heir
And I struggle with the thought
Violent games play inside my head
You’re there too, standing silent

I brace myself for the impact
And it has hit but I haven’t moved
Still pretending you’re there
Still wishing you weren’t gone

Awoke to the warmth of the sun
But my heart is solid ice now
Slowly cracking and breaking
And I can do nothing but watch

Now we go about our days
With those feelings ignored
And my love is replaced with hate
Don’t let this be the end

You’ll leave all the same
And I’ll cry and forget you
Then you’ll come running back
But I’ll already be gone