Shaded Heart

As I sit surrounded by strangers
A find myself dreaming of far away places
And wishing every breath wasn’t our last
Searching for an answer to an unknown question

I’m torn between these worlds
Of reality and surrealism
And I’m lost between you and me
Trapped within a void of hate

And I dare to dream of you
Your beauty hits me like the sun
Following even in my darkest recess
An image that is never gone

I cannot tell day from night
I drink the water that is sand
Slowly choking my love away
Until my heart stops beating

I turn to my enemies in disguise
And outreach my hand with a plea
And the silent condemnation tolls
And once again I am alone

The shadows slowly fade behind the moon
As the waters calmly die upon the shores
The stars reflect a heavenly sensation
Whose rejoice compared is nothing to mine

I’m holding you so close to my heart
The clouds of time stand motionless in awe
Marveled at your every little beauty
A match of two even heaven can’t define

And if the entire world had ended tonight
My whole world would still be the same
Just as long as you will stay here forever
Though forever may not be long enough

Everyday I’m sinking even deeper into you
And if I should drown that would be okay
There’s nothing else I’d rather feel tonight
Than the every tender curve of your love

I’m sitting here alone again
Writing another poem about you
Waiting for the phone to ring
But wishing you wouldn’t call

These help me to remember
How sweet your love really was
Even though words aren’t enough
They spark the memories of you

Even though you’re long gone
I can still feel you here today
Every letter pressed tells a story
Every line a dream of you

An outlet to my feelings
That I’m too afraid to show
A prison for my mind
A book of lies I call dreams

So I’ll lock these thoughts away
Bury them deep within my soul
A burden to my broken heart
A way to make me strong again

My heart is sinking slowly
In this vast serene
I’m lost inside your beauty
Tell me what it means?

I’m taken by my senses
To your sweet surreal
Nothing seems to matter
Hidden in perfect conceal

I’d give my life to love you
Can you understand?
Sorrows and doubts behind us
Nothing goes as planned

I wish that I could hear you
Whispers in my ear
I would die just to hold you
For just one moment so near

Do you know that I love you?
I’m not like the rest
I’ll be here with you always
And this I write to attest

Nothing else matters to me
It is only you
Put the past behind us now
I’ll never stop loving you

I saw you again today
But I held my breath
Wanting to just hold you
But even that is wrong

Trying so hard just to say “Hello”
When every moment counts
And every actions screams
And every word has meaning

I’m forgetting your scent
Every curve of your body
The sound of your voice
The magic of your smile

And I woke up this morning
Knowing I was still alone
And that this day has come
The day I’ve always feared

You saw me again today
But you never uttered a word
Passed me by like a stranger
As if you’d forgotten my name

You won’t even say “Hello”
It doesn’t even matter to you
Instead you’ve gone to my best friend
And I’m hating every second

You’re remembering the days
When everyone was friends
And no hearts had been broken
No feelings destroyed

It’s amazing to discover
You can change our very lives
With a simple change of mind
And not even give a damn

My heart is crying out for you
Let be known, my love is true
I wish you wouldn’t have to cry
But you do, despite all I try

Those who hurt you in the past
Those friends of your who did not last
Who cares at all what they say
As long as you’ll be with me today

But if you need to go and weep
I’ll be your hidden, secret keep
And together we’ll cry the night
And hold each other so very tight

And if you need to run away
I’ll be your shelter and your stay
Together we can find relief
From our sorrows, and our grief

Do not fear, I’m not the same
Of those who ridicule in shame
True is my passion which I show
Forget the world, just let it go

You will always mean so much to me
And I wish one day I could set you free
But maybe for this one minute pray
We’ll live it together, with past away

Confide in me your deepest fears
And I’ll whisper in your soften ears
I love you, I know that much is true
I am one, and that one is you

Thoughts freelancing inside my head
Feeling that I’d be better of dead
Without you I’m just standing here
Succumbing to my greatest fear

I’ve waited so long for you now
Those words I will not disavow
I loved you but now I’m fading away
So save me while I’m here today

Time is slowly healing my heart
A heart which you’ve torn all apart
But I don’t want to let it heal
Or else I’ll forget you’re even real

And if I make my heart out of tune
To you I will become completely immune
To save my own heart from breaking so
I can not take another such blow

Sure we make really good friends
But there is doesn’t have to end
If we start over what is it worth?
Our feelings will still unearth

So now keep me from moving on
Become not to me withdrawn
I’m losing you more every day
So come get me if you want to stay

Since you left I cannot dream
I don’t know what these feelings mean
I love you still but just make sure
A broken heart has no cure

I was too afraid to tell you before
But not that I have let’s not ignore
I’ve done everything I know to do
So now I give it up to you

In the shade of night
You hide amidst the trees
Broken from a passing thought
That never left your mind

The lifeless colour of grey and black
Haunt me like a photograph
A story behind our stilled result
With inanimate emotion swirled

The colourless stain of blood
From a heart broken with tears
Left open and cold for all
Screaming for a soothing hand

A lighted array of thought
Tainted with insecurity and desire
Of that love I once felt
That I sent but never received

I find myself lonely but not alone
Surrounded by pain and sorrow
Washing in a pool of self pity
Dirtied by a broken heart

Forbidden fruits encompass me
Tempting me with their beauty
Promising a fresh new life
So I hold them without tasting

Thoughts race through my mind
Memories and regrets I hold
Emotions distilled by hate
But I try not to fall down

The sun never did shine
Only light comes from within
But the night is suppressing
And I love and hate you

As I wade into deeper sorrow
My tears begin to drown me
And if these tears were yours
I wouldn’t mind death

Now I am lost to begin
And the oceans swell high
So I capsize my own boat
And my face pleads a resolve