Shaded Heart

As the morning light was breaking
I felt your warmth on my face
And as I woke up with a smile
I recalled the dream I had of you

As I’m listening to the music
I can hear you in the words
Singing out to reach me
Our chord which you charmed

I’ll pass you in the hallway
And greet you with my arms
Exchange intimate glances
The day becomes a better place

I love it when you lean on me
It makes me feel like I’m still strong
I’ll embrace you in my arms
And swear to never let you go

And when I read your letters
There’s not a word I understand
Except where you signed it
“Love Always”

And as the days continue on
Hopefully I’ll never wake up
From this dream, the dream is you
I will love you always, and forever

I’m sick of this feeling I have
A guilt and regret I didn’t earn
A hate you sowed in my heart
An anger you continued to fuel

And so I’ve let you go now
I even set you gently down
I’ve found your love in another
Someone who always makes me smile

Someone who’s there when I fall
And cares enough to say it so too
Someone who makes me feel wanted
And wants to be wanted the same

This is everything you threw away
All you had but tossed aside
This is my life I have to live
A life you chose to live without

A simple game between two hearts
That builds and grows from another
Caring for each other’s needs
Loving them for who they are

And when one side has had enough
They’ll turn on you and declare war
Murdering those that they once loved
And dividing their allies amongst them

The feud will last for sever weeks
Taking unmercifully the innocent too
It’s funny how our lives can be so changed
With a simple change of mind

The daytime high begins to crash
Waves breaking coldly on the shore
The moon casts its deathly shadow
A grim relief of its former self

The smoke consumes the arid sky
And the hours trickle down my face
Distilled by a natural fate
That solidifies a truth well kept

The scornful wind plunders the trees
Explosions litter the atmosphere
Streams of justice take revenge
A fire destroys inadvertently

Soon the suppression lifts
The moon reveals itself to the sky
The day now silently breaking
Behold the irony of love

Trapped within a bitter despair
Cool air forces itself through the trees
And the amble of the day turns to haste
As the crow devours the white dove

The elicited truth bleeds forth
And my hands bathe themselves red
As the grotesque truth is revealed to me
A watered down lie once believed

And its as the night becomes day
Hate replaces love in my heart
And anger streams thought my veins
Destroying a heart no longer for you

I spit in the face of so called truth
I chew on it and regurgitate it back
And I fear this merciless soul-killer
And I find ignorance a pleasing savior

Love, it’s like a sunset
An inevitable fact of life
A beauty that captures our eyes and heart
But eventually fades below the horizon

A feeling you’ll always return to
And one that will always be there in the end
A fortunate token of life
That no man has control of

And everyday tells a story
The sun burns a love that’s true
The ocean’s depth my capacity
Despise the night that steals you away

On the surface, you pretend to be.
Powerful, Wealthy, Prestigious
Your friends, your family
So comforting – so perfect.

On the surface, you think you understand.
You act out life’s charade, hoping to be know
Hoping to be loved.
You were born this way, and you shall die as this.

On the surface, you start your construction
You build toward that which you cannot reach
You seek that which is not even there.
To be something you can never be.

But I have burrowed beneath the surface

Underneath you see who you really are.
You life was nothing, so empty.
Your friends abandoned you; your family denied you
So truthful – so hurting.

Underneath is where true knowledge is found.
You begin to reveal the most deadly secrets.
I’ve never been so alone
But I’ve never been so alive.

You tear down the mask you wear.
And go deep within the earth
To find truth; to find yourself
To be what you know you are

The shadows slowly fade behind the moon
As the waters calmly die upon the shores
The stars reflect a heavenly sensation
Whose rejoice compared is nothing to mine

I’m holding you so close to my heart
The clouds of time stand motionless in awe
Marveled at your every little beauty
A match of two even heaven can’t define

And if the entire world had ended tonight
My whole world would still be the same
Just as long as you will stay here forever
Though forever may not be long enough

Everyday I’m sinking even deeper into you
And if I should drown that would be okay
There’s nothing else I’d rather feel tonight
Than the every tender curve of your love

I’m sitting here alone again
Writing another poem about you
Waiting for the phone to ring
But wishing you wouldn’t call

These help me to remember
How sweet your love really was
Even though words aren’t enough
They spark the memories of you

Even though you’re long gone
I can still feel you here today
Every letter pressed tells a story
Every line a dream of you

An outlet to my feelings
That I’m too afraid to show
A prison for my mind
A book of lies I call dreams

So I’ll lock these thoughts away
Bury them deep within my soul
A burden to my broken heart
A way to make me strong again

My heart is sinking slowly
In this vast serene
I’m lost inside your beauty
Tell me what it means?

I’m taken by my senses
To your sweet surreal
Nothing seems to matter
Hidden in perfect conceal

I’d give my life to love you
Can you understand?
Sorrows and doubts behind us
Nothing goes as planned

I wish that I could hear you
Whispers in my ear
I would die just to hold you
For just one moment so near

Do you know that I love you?
I’m not like the rest
I’ll be here with you always
And this I write to attest

Nothing else matters to me
It is only you
Put the past behind us now
I’ll never stop loving you