Shaded Heart

In a world of no forgiveness
In a realm of many tears
In this sphere of sorrows
And of relentless fears

In a place of no tomorrow
You can only find today
And you live in your past
Where your life seems astray

There’s a place of loving
A perfected conceal
Where everything is peaceful
And your dreams become real

If you’d only let me love you
I’d show you the way
To my small piece of heaven
Where forever you can stay

If you’d put your past behind you
And gave to me today
Tomorrow we’ll face together
If it could only be this way

You say that you know me
But you have yet to see
You think you’ve got me figured out
But I’m forced to disagree

Confide to me your darkness
And I will give you my light
Tell me your deep regressions
And I’ll still love you tonight

Can you grasp my love for you
You must know it is real
And when you keep things from me
Pain is all I can feel

My heart is crying out for you
Let be known, my love is true
I wish you wouldn’t have to cry
But you do, despite all I try

Those who hurt you in the past
Those friends of your who did not last
Who cares at all what they say
As long as you’ll be with me today

But if you need to go and weep
I’ll be your hidden, secret keep
And together we’ll cry the night
And hold each other so very tight

And if you need to run away
I’ll be your shelter and your stay
Together we can find relief
From our sorrows, and our grief

Do not fear, I’m not the same
Of those who ridicule in shame
True is my passion which I show
Forget the world, just let it go

You will always mean so much to me
And I wish one day I could set you free
But maybe for this one minute pray
We’ll live it together, with past away

Confide in me your deepest fears
And I’ll whisper in your soften ears
I love you, I know that much is true
I am one, and that one is you

In hurt and fear my mind is caught
Up the volume to drown my thought
Though the sound burn my ears
It’s not enough to hide my tears

Your words can hurt like a knife
Your words make up my simple life
Was all I said lost in vain?
Are my actions consumed by pain?

Constant reminder of my mistake
This futile game which I partake
Can’t you let my errors go?
Maybe then you’ll start to know

History itself does not repeat
Our future now is not concrete
But the present is something I know
I’d love you if you’d let me show

I hope this feeling does not last
I hope someday you will contrast
You’re different and you know it too
I plan to see this one through

This feeling I cannot describe
The way you make me feel inside
Your every breath, your every touch
I’ve never felt a love so much

The way your smile makes me feel
Inside your eyes a sweet surreal
The softened feeling of your skin
These things I never want to end

I hope these words aren’t too late
I hope your love will not abate
Too long I’ve held these thoughts within
How beautiful this time has been

I hope we’ll make it through the fights
That keep me wide awake at night
I just don’t want to see you go
Just tell me that you see it so

In the shade of night
You hide amidst the trees
Broken from a passing thought
That never left your mind

The lifeless colour of grey and black
Haunt me like a photograph
A story behind our stilled result
With inanimate emotion swirled

The colourless stain of blood
From a heart broken with tears
Left open and cold for all
Screaming for a soothing hand

A lighted array of thought
Tainted with insecurity and desire
Of that love I once felt
That I sent but never received

I’m leaving now
Time to say farewell
To the times we once had
And to my love

So broken-hearted
Where did I go wrong?
I never had you, did I?
It was just pretend

The pain is real, though
I’m seeing you everyday
And each glance hurts still
It makes me cry

This game is over
I’ve waited long enough
If you ever loved me
You would be back by now

When I am gone
You’ll be missing me
And I’ll miss you
Good-bye

I find myself lonely but not alone
Surrounded by pain and sorrow
Washing in a pool of self pity
Dirtied by a broken heart

Forbidden fruits encompass me
Tempting me with their beauty
Promising a fresh new life
So I hold them without tasting

Thoughts race through my mind
Memories and regrets I hold
Emotions distilled by hate
But I try not to fall down

The sun never did shine
Only light comes from within
But the night is suppressing
And I love and hate you

As I wade into deeper sorrow
My tears begin to drown me
And if these tears were yours
I wouldn’t mind death

Now I am lost to begin
And the oceans swell high
So I capsize my own boat
And my face pleads a resolve

Sunday rain hits the ground
Replaying a too familiar sound
I lock myself inside my room
And listen to the quiet tune

You’ve been gone for far too long
And it’s too late to say you’re wrong
This isn’t how it’s supposed to be
If only I could make you see

Love songs pour out the car
Breakup songs are not too far
I’m hearing different than before
What the hell am I waiting for?

I read the letters you had sent
I dreamed of you without consent
I remembered how it used to be
Both together happily

I write you poems you’ll never read
And make myself this final creed
I love you enough to let you go
But if you leave I’ll never know