Shaded Heart

Here upon the threshold of a midnight hour,
as the arctic air pulses through my veins,
love rides upon the wings of a whisper
that throws my heart into a deafening roar.

Conversation warms under incandescent rays
while angelic eyes set the mood free.
Impossibility becomes a bitter rumor
as a smile gives way to fledgling hope.

Dragonfly circles around my head at night.
She rides the cool morning breeze
to show me places I’ve only dreamed possible.
Her back burns a cerulean blue
and her nose leads with a silver diamond.
A hundred copper eyes reflect her one true soul
and sees my gray heart in six-hundred ways.
To catch her is futile; all I can do is lie still
and let her grace my bed until the westerly wind blows.

The subtle sound of sleep awakens me
Immersed in frozen thatches of darkness
Your name glides upon the whispers of the night
And illuminates my thoughts with you

A sigh escapes quietly into the night
And rests upon the frame of your photograph
I persuade my finger across the glass
And recede at its empty texture

I see you now amidst the heavens
Blazoned across the morning sky
An angel of this golden firmament
Shining down your endless beauty

The darkness took me when I strayed
From a world which had betrayed
Now I see the truest light
From within the darkest night

I try to find the words to say
Exactly what I meant that day
There’s nothing else I’d rather do
Than spend the day alone with you

When it comes to my own heart
I never quite know where to start
You will always mean so much to me
It may be hard for you to see

I wish our nights would stand stilled
Making now those dreams fufilled
The days I’m waiting missing you
I wonder how I make it through

You wonder what my heart would say
If it could speak to you today
If nothing else I care for you
You alone; I know it’s true

Those crazy nights and longing days
I’m trapped within your mystic haze
A place of passion and surreal
A place I always want to feel

Thoughts of you are flashing past my eyes
There’s something here I failed to realize
I’m wondering if this is still the end
But just so you know, I’d do it all again

Your hair falls into place
And my heart starts to race
The smoothness of your skin
Won’t you smile at me again?

And the nights with nothing else to do
I only know I want to be with you
My mind is numb and I can never think
When your love is on the brink

I want to put this pain aside
I want to forget about your lies
I want to hear your voice again
I want to be with you again, again

Your hands run down side
Makes me feel so alive
When you smile up at me
There’s no where I’d rather be

Walking around the room again
Doing circles in my head
Forgot to eat today again
Wondering if I’m dead

Music playing loud again
Lyrics make me cry
Didn’t sleep another night again
No reason to try

Not picking up the phone again
It’s not you anyway
Writing in my book again
You’ll probably throw away

Crying all alone again
Nothing stops the tears
Dying all alone again
You are all my fears

In the quiet stillness of night
As the rain softly taps on my heart
A breeze gently rustles through my mind
Which carries the whisper of your name

Months of time pass in seconds
As I lust for the thought of you
I fear to be left alone with my thoughts
Alone without the sound of your name

Words spill onto paper like blood
And they flow through the veins of pages
That somehow these feeble words might suffice
And fill your heart with the love I breathe

Trapped within a bitter despair
Cool air forces itself through the trees
And the amble of the day turns to haste
As the crow devours the white dove

The elicited truth bleeds forth
And my hands bathe themselves red
As the grotesque truth is revealed to me
A watered down lie once believed

And its as the night becomes day
Hate replaces love in my heart
And anger streams thought my veins
Destroying a heart no longer for you

I spit in the face of so called truth
I chew on it and regurgitate it back
And I fear this merciless soul-killer
And I find ignorance a pleasing savior

Love, it’s like a sunset
An inevitable fact of life
A beauty that captures our eyes and heart
But eventually fades below the horizon

A feeling you’ll always return to
And one that will always be there in the end
A fortunate token of life
That no man has control of

And everyday tells a story
The sun burns a love that’s true
The ocean’s depth my capacity
Despise the night that steals you away