Shaded Heart

D ear so a precious love,
I nscripted with the edge of time
A re symbols of my joyous heart
M ade to last a lifetime
O ur souls now intertwine
N ot unlike a candle’s fire
D istinguishes from the darkest
S hadows of my love

When fading worlds seem to collide
And everything starts to break inside
Heavy thunder rings its toll
That lightning has struck this soul

The violent rose lashes forth
A symbol that was something of worth
Shattered by such turbulent wind
Never will it love again

Rain proceeds to drown its prey
And promises will soon decay
And soon the light will twinkle through
And dry up all my thoughts of you

When the days become long and hot
And the sun again shows no mercy
The thought is burned into my head
The memory of my summer past

The painful ones I’d rather forget
These better ones I hardly know
My broken thoughts have pulled together
Time has slowly found its way

Well I bet you never understood
I’m guessing you were that blind
The things you did to kill my heart
When I needed you the most

The times when I would fight at home
Those days I bet you never cared
Did you care enough to look inside?
Pain was swelling in my eyes

My self had become lost in me
My soul had become unclear
Did you see the loss in me?
You never tried to help me find

When I only needed someone to hold
You went and ripped yourself away
When I was weak you struck me down
Did you ever even understand?

Even when I was falling after you
Did you catch me before I hit?
The nights I cried over my loss
I bet you never knew about those

But when I hit I stood right up
Hand by hand climbed out of pain
Now you want what you always had
What you selfishly gave away

I won’t let you drag me down again
I’m bruised but I’m not beaten
And this isn’t a hate letter, oh no
This is merely an explanation

In distant thoughts or fading dreams
I can envision your crystaled eyes
Burning blue torches of fire
Fueled by the essence of your soul

As the night coat begins to shed
Light breaks across your every contour
Illuminating my thoughts with you
That flow filled with your beauty

The sand of time trickles tardily
And I savor every grain of love
And I long to hold you close to me
To live again inside your smile

I’m sitting here alone again
Writing another poem about you
Waiting for the phone to ring
But wishing you wouldn’t call

These help me to remember
How sweet your love really was
Even though words aren’t enough
They spark the memories of you

Even though you’re long gone
I can still feel you here today
Every letter pressed tells a story
Every line a dream of you

An outlet to my feelings
That I’m too afraid to show
A prison for my mind
A book of lies I call dreams

So I’ll lock these thoughts away
Bury them deep within my soul
A burden to my broken heart
A way to make me strong again

The darkness enshrouds me
like a warm blanket in winter
or the thought of fear among the fearful.
The darkness soothes me
like a thousand singing sirens
or a lover’s hand upon my beaten face.
The darkness conceals me
like the night hides the sun
or my deepest inner secrets held.
The darkness welcomes me
like an inn to the lost traveler
or a mother’s knowing embrace.
The darkness contains me
like the sky holds its stars,
or the man who keeps his soul.
The darkness is a place I’ve found;
a place I shall never leave.