Shaded Heart

Splintered thoughts cannot express
the violence that powers these wounded hands.
As each twisted line slips away,
I am one awkward step closer to my fate.

Inside the wisdom of a tainted grape
I find no delusions, no distractions
from my malevolent realities. Instead
the pain ferments inside: a bitter crop.

Rage soothes me but does not satisfy
the lurid desires of a shaded heart;
as each blackened grain of time falls
that radiant desolation spreads further inward.

Listless nights drown me with a vast silence
and faded splendor of worlds unobtainable.
Here I live beneath a placid surface;
a cold and wavy face adrift in time.

The winds of life blow
across the oceans of my heart;
changing love to ice
deep beneath the crushing days.

What ship can traverse
these cold and uncharted thoughts?
Who can navigate
when the stars have all disappeared?

A new moon rises;
its pale hope glistening silently
on these shaded sails.
But soon it too is gone.

The subtle sound of sleep awakens me
Immersed in frozen thatches of darkness
Your name glides upon the whispers of the night
And illuminates my thoughts with you

A sigh escapes quietly into the night
And rests upon the frame of your photograph
I persuade my finger across the glass
And recede at its empty texture

I see you now amidst the heavens
Blazoned across the morning sky
An angel of this golden firmament
Shining down your endless beauty

Tainted thought brings sweet illusion
Victory of a forgotton fall
Temptation arising into passion of love
Succumb to the sweet melody

Bringing more than just emotion
Something that seeks to destroy
But is held as a treasure to you
And I too have tasted death

Echos sound across these walls
Reflecting thoughts I threw away
Burning imagines inflame my mind
As hate consumes my fading heart

Lonliness never seems to leave
Along with words I could do without
I spit the acid of rejection
At your lies and broken promises

Feelings plague this hallow soul
And I curse myself into hell
When voices sound in my direction
I’ll be too far gone to hear

When fading worlds seem to collide
And everything starts to break inside
Heavy thunder rings its toll
That lightning has struck this soul

The violent rose lashes forth
A symbol that was something of worth
Shattered by such turbulent wind
Never will it love again

Rain proceeds to drown its prey
And promises will soon decay
And soon the light will twinkle through
And dry up all my thoughts of you

Thoughts are softly seeping through my brain
Violent stares at baron walls again
These desperate rings are ringing through my head
Wondering if I could really be this dead

Repulsive sounds now take on form
Reciting how I could ever be this torn
Acid tears are keeping me from sleep
With thoughts of things I dare not repeat

Broken words pierce through the heart
I’m holding in yet I’m falling apart
Selfdestruct at the wheel of my car
How could you set me this far?

In hurt and fear my mind is caught
Up the volume to drown my thought
Though the sound burn my ears
It’s not enough to hide my tears

Your words can hurt like a knife
Your words make up my simple life
Was all I said lost in vain?
Are my actions consumed by pain?

Constant reminder of my mistake
This futile game which I partake
Can’t you let my errors go?
Maybe then you’ll start to know

History itself does not repeat
Our future now is not concrete
But the present is something I know
I’d love you if you’d let me show

I hope this feeling does not last
I hope someday you will contrast
You’re different and you know it too
I plan to see this one through

Thoughts freelancing inside my head
Feeling that I’d be better of dead
Without you I’m just standing here
Succumbing to my greatest fear

I’ve waited so long for you now
Those words I will not disavow
I loved you but now I’m fading away
So save me while I’m here today

Time is slowly healing my heart
A heart which you’ve torn all apart
But I don’t want to let it heal
Or else I’ll forget you’re even real

And if I make my heart out of tune
To you I will become completely immune
To save my own heart from breaking so
I can not take another such blow

Sure we make really good friends
But there is doesn’t have to end
If we start over what is it worth?
Our feelings will still unearth

So now keep me from moving on
Become not to me withdrawn
I’m losing you more every day
So come get me if you want to stay

Since you left I cannot dream
I don’t know what these feelings mean
I love you still but just make sure
A broken heart has no cure

I was too afraid to tell you before
But not that I have let’s not ignore
I’ve done everything I know to do
So now I give it up to you

In the shade of night
You hide amidst the trees
Broken from a passing thought
That never left your mind

The lifeless colour of grey and black
Haunt me like a photograph
A story behind our stilled result
With inanimate emotion swirled

The colourless stain of blood
From a heart broken with tears
Left open and cold for all
Screaming for a soothing hand

A lighted array of thought
Tainted with insecurity and desire
Of that love I once felt
That I sent but never received