Shaded Heart

My love is the sea;
a vast and unyielding force
with depths yet unseen.

Splintered thoughts cannot express
the violence that powers these wounded hands.
As each twisted line slips away,
I am one awkward step closer to my fate.

Inside the wisdom of a tainted grape
I find no delusions, no distractions
from my malevolent realities. Instead
the pain ferments inside: a bitter crop.

Rage soothes me but does not satisfy
the lurid desires of a shaded heart;
as each blackened grain of time falls
that radiant desolation spreads further inward.

Listless nights drown me with a vast silence
and faded splendor of worlds unobtainable.
Here I live beneath a placid surface;
a cold and wavy face adrift in time.

She flows gracefully through my mind
Like that of a thousand rivers
Whose cool waters converge at my footsteps
Offering to me the very essence of life

She effortlessly breathes a sensual message
That transcends all my thoughts and words
Consisting of a pure perfection
That sends pleasure to my enamored mind

She sleeps upon a golden lining
Positioned deep within my heart
A place of refuge and serinity
Where innocence lives within her beauty

The shadows slowly fade behind the moon
As the waters calmly die upon the shores
The stars reflect a heavenly sensation
Whose rejoice compared is nothing to mine

I’m holding you so close to my heart
The clouds of time stand motionless in awe
Marveled at your every little beauty
A match of two even heaven can’t define

And if the entire world had ended tonight
My whole world would still be the same
Just as long as you will stay here forever
Though forever may not be long enough

Everyday I’m sinking even deeper into you
And if I should drown that would be okay
There’s nothing else I’d rather feel tonight
Than the every tender curve of your love

I find myself lonely but not alone
Surrounded by pain and sorrow
Washing in a pool of self pity
Dirtied by a broken heart

Forbidden fruits encompass me
Tempting me with their beauty
Promising a fresh new life
So I hold them without tasting

Thoughts race through my mind
Memories and regrets I hold
Emotions distilled by hate
But I try not to fall down

The sun never did shine
Only light comes from within
But the night is suppressing
And I love and hate you

As I wade into deeper sorrow
My tears begin to drown me
And if these tears were yours
I wouldn’t mind death

Now I am lost to begin
And the oceans swell high
So I capsize my own boat
And my face pleads a resolve