Shaded Heart

Take me by the hand again
You pull me deeper in
Inside the dream that I call “You”
You make me want to live again

Look me in the eyes and say
Speak to me from your heart
Tell me how it’s going to end
Make us different from the rest

Hold me close and never release
You take my breath away
Time stands still in endless wonder
At the moment of your touch

Oceans pour out a painful cry
Bearing the distance of our love
Knowing that with waters so blue
They keep me from your cerulean eyes

Restless nights bring no comfort
As each hour is spent in memories
Enthralled in such sweetened moments
Wanting desperately for the next

The picture frame beside my bed
Holds this lifeless image of you
That seems to somehow come alive
At the sounding of your voice

I’m weaving between metal death
My fingers flow with turns of you
And every car passed brings me closer
Closer to your touch of love

The radio plays all our songs
So every word I take to heart
Everything you have ever said
Is treasured within these doors

The air becomes my only hope
Filled with all the breaths of you
Rushing through my distant eyes
And crashing upon my heart

The mileage is my written proof
With every mile I love you more
I’d drive forever to see you smile
To hold you close to my heart

When the days become long and hot
And the sun again shows no mercy
The thought is burned into my head
The memory of my summer past

The painful ones I’d rather forget
These better ones I hardly know
My broken thoughts have pulled together
Time has slowly found its way

Well I bet you never understood
I’m guessing you were that blind
The things you did to kill my heart
When I needed you the most

The times when I would fight at home
Those days I bet you never cared
Did you care enough to look inside?
Pain was swelling in my eyes

My self had become lost in me
My soul had become unclear
Did you see the loss in me?
You never tried to help me find

When I only needed someone to hold
You went and ripped yourself away
When I was weak you struck me down
Did you ever even understand?

Even when I was falling after you
Did you catch me before I hit?
The nights I cried over my loss
I bet you never knew about those

But when I hit I stood right up
Hand by hand climbed out of pain
Now you want what you always had
What you selfishly gave away

I won’t let you drag me down again
I’m bruised but I’m not beaten
And this isn’t a hate letter, oh no
This is merely an explanation

The day gives way to darker heir
And I struggle with the thought
Violent games play inside my head
You’re there too, standing silent

I brace myself for the impact
And it has hit but I haven’t moved
Still pretending you’re there
Still wishing you weren’t gone

Awoke to the warmth of the sun
But my heart is solid ice now
Slowly cracking and breaking
And I can do nothing but watch

Now we go about our days
With those feelings ignored
And my love is replaced with hate
Don’t let this be the end

You’ll leave all the same
And I’ll cry and forget you
Then you’ll come running back
But I’ll already be gone